should be kept to self

just a short jot. know what? it's torturing me to see you living in my dreams day by day.. each and every night. tell me what should i do then. this, do you think it's easy for me to leave you? not that i'm not trying. i have tried. but the way it hurts me make me stop trying. i've decided to just go on with this. please.. let me. thank you dear. ;')